Sad post in a sad day

Today is exactly 3 months that I am here. Although I have a feeling that I just came. And that’s why I am really afraid that next 3 months will pass with the same speed. I really don’t want to leave this country…

At the same time today I felt for the first time that I am really missing Ukraine. I stuck in traffic on my way back home and I was thinking that this is the day when I really want to be alone, totally alone. I understood that I don’t know any place here where I can be alone: lots of other interns at my home and lots of staring people on the streets. Well actually there is one place – our balcony, nobody is here as its already cold, so as other trainees say this is ‘my office’. Of course it’s not the same as getting lost somewhere in Kyiv but still this is something.

For the last few days I was also thinking a lot about my family and my friends. And how great is that I have them. Being at home I was never thinking about that. Here I am for the first time isolated from them and sometimes I am dreaming about watching football with beers and stavridka with my freaky unlimited team at Bugorna 13 or watching ‘cheap horror movies’ or doing any kind of other bullshits with them.

Well I guess I have a feeling which once was perfectly described by my Greek friend: “I want to go but I don’t want to leave.” But I guess tomorrow will be better. Will not have time to think about that again if won’t stuck in traffic. Next time promise to write ‘happy post’ ;)